Today I wanted to cry so bad when I was in Pizza Hut
The man that I always wanted to be with since day one Hurt me!
For 3 1/2 years I've been off and on with this guy ......
I stared out the window and watched the cars go by and I just wanted to cry and let the tears flow
But I remember tears are a sign of weakness and Elvria is not weak at all!
So I kept my tears inside and told him how me has been making feel and he told me what he thought and how he felt about the situation
The moment he opened his mouth I realized He Does Not Want To Be in a relationship with me
He is here because he Loves me but he does not want to be with me
See You can Love someone with all your heart doesnt mean you want to be in a relationship with them.
We sat in silence only time we spoke was when the waiter came by our table and ask'd questions and even then I wanted to scream out for hug or a gentle kiss on my forehead to reassure me my feeling at that moment were a lies .... and that he really does want to be with me.
Every time I opened my mouth that never happened ... I just wanted to cry more than I did when my mouth was closed
Then I realized and thought all my flings have moved on from me and so has he.
They all have something new and I have nothing at all
At the end of the day I realize that I need no other man all I need is myself
&& With myself I will be happy!
But for today I just want to cry n sleep
In the morning I'll be fine! Love is a crazy thing and if you use it right you'll be happy
Abuse Love and you'll be hurt!