F*k U

I Never Understood why as a child I was always by myself in daycare and grade school
Then I Realized that I never like the students that were around me
They were all into what everyone else had and I was more on the level of .... Doing ME iGuess
Throughout grade school I always had one friend as a best friend
I never hung out with a bunch of females I always tried to stay to myself.
To me I always thought females were like ANTS they always running around trying to find the next person to bite.
I seen so many of my classmates get stabbed in the back by a so-called friend so I said said Fuck 'em I never needed them! Everything I needed was at home.
But when I realized how selective I was about Females I was Extremely picky about the males I kept in my company.
---My 1st boyfriend was a thug trying to live the fast life and I was only in the 6th grade so I didn't know any better that he was no good. I stood by him all the way up to my 8th grade,,,I left him because he was craving for a kid -&& I was only 15 that nigga had to go! =\ Now his 21 with two kids by 2 different females and all of the sudden he wants to go back to college.

after him I decided I my next boyfriend who be nothing like him.....

Now I see myself searching for something that I realize that I do not need.
I spend many nights alone and at times I get bothered by it but in actuality
I'm comfortable being single!
-&& to all the females and males trying to live my life I send a simple FUCK YOU ♥

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I Want To Kiss You But That Would Only Complicate Things

Touch Your Face & Look In Your Eyes & Tell You My Secrets 

Be The Face You Awake To & The Face You 

Fall Asleep To At Night ♥ 

Lay In Bed All Morning On Saturdays & Play Child Like Love Games 

Never Growing Old In Each Others Eyes & Spending so Much Time 

Brush Your Hair After a Hair Cut and Kiss Your Neck & Tell You I Love You! 

Trusting You When I Feel Alone ... Because You Would Be My Other Half 

Taking Pointless Trips To Keep The Excitement 

Seeing The World With You & Loving Every Minute 

Spending a day without you & missing you like crazy

Even When Your Away I want to Still Be Able to Smell Your Cologne ... You Always Wear My Favorite 

If Only I could I Kiss You ... But It Would Only Complicate Things .... Only Complicate Things 

His Shoes Will Never Be Filled

I remember when I Fell In Love With Michael Jackson
I was like in the 5th Grade and Rush Hour 2 Came Out
&& Michael was dropping his album around the same time of the premiere of the Movie
His video You Rocked My World was everywhere
I would record it on VHS and rewind and watch it over and over again
I begged my mom for his CD I mean BEGGED!
For Christmas my mom bought me madd CDs I Mean a lot
But My Number one favorite was
Michael Jackson Invisible ... <3 I played that CD over and over
I was young and most of Michael prime years was when my mother was young !!!
But I loved this guy music and I Always Will
I ♥ MJ & I will Always Love His Music =)
I Listen to his music not just today but at least 3Xs a week =)
My Favorite Song of his is SPEECHLESS and my Favorite video is REMEMBER THE TIME
I Miss You Mike <3

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Sometimes Music is what allow Let My Mind to Escape 
A Good Adele song takes my there =) 

Wondering

Today I wanted to cry so bad when I was in Pizza Hut
The man that I always wanted to be with since day one Hurt me!
For 3 1/2 years I've been off and on with this guy ......

I stared out the window and watched the cars go by and I just wanted to cry and let the tears flow
But I remember tears are a sign of weakness and Elvria is not weak at all!
So I kept my tears inside and told him how me has been making feel and he told me what he thought and how he felt about the situation
The moment he opened his mouth I realized He Does Not Want To Be in a relationship with me
He is here because he Loves me but he does not want to be with me
See You can Love someone with all your heart doesnt mean you want to be in a relationship with them.
We sat in silence only time we spoke was when the waiter came by our table and ask'd questions and even then I wanted to scream out for hug or a gentle kiss on my forehead to reassure me my feeling at that moment were a lies .... and that he really does want to be with me.
Every time I opened my mouth that never happened ... I just wanted to cry more than I did when my mouth was closed
Then I realized and thought all my flings have moved on from me and so has he.
They all have something new and I have nothing at all
At the end of the day I realize that I need no other man all I need is myself
&& With myself I will be happy!
But for today I just want to cry n sleep
In the morning I'll be fine! Love is a crazy thing and if you use it right you'll be happy
Abuse Love and you'll be hurt!